It’s (almost) the first day of winter…
I didn’t think it would take me this long to write another blog post. It’s been a productive day, the kids are in bed (humming Christmas carols), and I’m sitting down with some coffee thinking it’s about time that I write again.
In my heart, there’s a warm but fragile flame that brings a peaceful warmth to my mind and soul. There are still many unknowns in our life, but in this moment, all is well with the world.
An Advent Reflection…
Looking back over the last few months, I smile at how it resembles this season of Advent. In just a few days we will celebrate Christmas, the birth of Our Lord. But in this Advent season we can already celebrate the incarnation of Christ in His mother’s womb. It’s a hidden miracle that has to take place before He can be ushered into the world by angels.
Our lives on earth are our own personal Advents. Here is where our souls are made ready, so that we can one day be ushered by angels into Heaven. However, God first needs our “yes” to work in us – just like He needed Mary’s “yes” to be the Mother of God.
Will we also respond, “Let it be done to me according to your word.”?
My Account of Continued Formation…
By August I was feeling burnt out and weary. It had been a busy summer teaching essential oil classes, travel, and the day-to-day of being a mom. I was feeling a tug on my heart to pull back. It was something that I had felt before, but I didn’t want to feel like I was giving up. Too many other times in my life I chose not to continue with something because it got “too hard.” I didn’t want my Young Living business to be one of those things. But the feeling remained, so I prayed about it like I had those other times.
Finally, I discerned that I truly needed to pull back for the good of my family. Give up? No. I am happy to teach a class, help, or support others in their essential oil and health journey, but I’ve pulled back from full-blown business for now – right now it is my hobby. Sometimes you have to step back in order to move forward.
Once this decision was made, I was left with feelings of guilt and trepidation, but also peace and joy. Then there was this void, a hole that I had been filling with all things Young Living and network marketing, was left gaping wide open… Like an open wound, it was sore and needed to be made whole.
So I started searching and praying for some more insight into God’s Will for our life. (An “Okay God, now what?” moment) I have so many desires for our family – good desires, but desires that I have no control over.
So Everything Went to the Feet of Jesus…
The first month that the kids were in school I started going to daily Mass as often as I could, and many Rosaries were said. I was also reading book after book that nourished my relationship with Our Lord as I continued to seek out His Will for this point in my life.
He brought people and experiences into my life that I would have otherwise missed. If we were able to talk face-to-face I might be better able to explain it all …or not. But it’s a bit involved for here and now.
Let There Be Peace on Earth…
…and Let it Begin With Me. Right now the kids are half-way through their year in public school, John just finished up many weeks of 12 hour work days due to the Christmas season, and I’m a busy mom at peace.
Oh… we still have a lot of unknowns left to uncover in the New Year, but in this moment I’m at peace with it all.
Pray for us as we continue to strive to trust God in all things.